How To Know When To Change Direction
How do you know when you’re headed in the wrong direction? How do you know when it’s time to change course?
For months now, I’ve been second guessing myself and what I already know to be true. For a long time, I felt pulled and stretched in a million different directions.
My stomach would turn in knots when I’d try to make a schedule of everything I needed to get done to accomplish the things I thought I wanted. The struggle was real, people!
Finally last week, I stopped. I prayed. I listened.
And God answered.
Ever since, I have felt completely and utterly calm. I am relaxed. I have direction and focus again. I am at peace.
I always tell people to follow their passion and do what you love. Life is too short to spend it chasing someone else’s dream.
This blog and my life were heading down a road I had zero interest in pursuing. So much so, I stopped writing on my blog. It was like pulling teeth to find inspiration to write anything.
The truth is, I don’t want to be a health coach. I don’t want to blog about health topics or the benefits of eating a plant-based diet. I don’t want to take on clients and treat health conditions. I don’t want to build a business in network marketing.
I have an interest in natural health. I have an interest in longevity. I love Young Living’s products and will use them for the rest of my life. I like and have interest in a lot of things. However, those personal interests are not passions. I like to learn about health topics, but I have zero interest in spending my time blogging about them or building a business around them.
My husband was a huge help when I was struggling last week. Shortly after I prayed, I told him how stressed and unhappy I was and how I felt I was being pulled away from what I really wanted in life.
I think God used him to help me, because my husband listened, then asked me a simple question.
“If you had to give up everything you’re doing, but could only keep one thing, what would it be?”
The answer was simple. My writing.
There is a joy and peace for me in writing, especially my romantic suspense books that is hard to explain.
I like to write dark, scary, hard-edged romantic fiction. It is what fills my heart with joy. It’s what I want to read. It’s what I think about.
For a long time, I tried to convince myself my calling was this or that, but in my heart, I wasn’t passionate about anything but my characters and their stories.
I have so many stories crammed into my head and jotted down in notebooks, I don’t know that they’ll ever all be written. But I will have fun trying!
The truth is I would be blissfully happy to live in a tiny house in Malibu, California and write. That is what I want for my life.
So, my blog posts from now on will be about me. They will basically be an online journal of my struggles writing and living life to the fullest. I hope you will stay with me. I hope you will pursue your own journey toward your dreams.
Always remember that success is not a destination, it is a journey.
I pray all of you have beautiful journeys.